So the kids started their weekends of 2 overnights with Mom. From here until Spring break they will only be home Sunday, Monday, and Thursday evening. They will be here Tuesday nights but they have therapy and Wednesdays they will come home at about 8pm in time for bed.
Hubby and I celebrated Valentines day early yesterday. Going out for dinner and a movie and we are headed to a martini party tonight.
I came home from our night out yesterday to a message from LM's teacher. She didn't turn in a paper. I sent a text to Mom and ended up talking to LM via text. It broke my heart.
Today hubby and I spent a great deal of time talking about our next steps. We have come back to being able to consider foster parenting in the future. We've considered that maybe our time helping these kids is over and it's time to help new kids.
And we took a look and said, look at all the gifts we have and were given during this time. Look at all the good. But then feeling was, well then why does this feel so bad?
Because love is often painful. It's messy. It's rewarding and wonderful but it can hurt. Like hell.
But we'll be ok. Because it is better to have loved an lost than to never have lived at all.
Long Overdue Update
Well hello there! It has been years since I've written and published a post and recently I've had the idea that maybe this year was ...
better to have loved and lost .... so true. And true it is painful to love and lose. God be with you through this transition.
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