In Her Shoes

So I had kind of an aha moment today. In between my crying jags I thought this must be how Mom feels at times. And for like 10 minutes I felt true empathy. Then I felt anger.

Angry that she hurt kids at all. Angry that it took her so long to progress through her case plan. And angry that the big difference between her pain and mine is that she always knew that she would get to see her kids.

So I was super annoyed when she texted to talk to LM who came home with a headache. You couldn't notice when Gabby was throwing up but LM has a headache and now you're concerned was all I could think. (And I'm a chronic headache and nerve pain in my head sufferer. I am one of THE most sympathetic people when it comes to headaches.)

But my earlier empathy had me change my tune. When I got home I had LM call Mom and tell her that her head still hurt. It was my olive branch. In less than 60 days I'm going to wonder how the kids are and I'm praying to God that I'll be allowed a phone call. I'm hoping Mom sees me trying to be giving.

I have some theories as to why her head hurts. Stress gives me headaches that knock me out. I can imagine that this weekend was stressful. It could also be hormonal. Or depression. Because as cheesy as the commercial is; depression hurts.
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  1. Cherub MammaFebruary 10, 2013 at 7:56 PM

    I've got no words. Just know that I'm listening and praying.

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