A little later Sarah said to me:
"Mom, my Mom said I never cried. I don't really believe that. That can't be true can it? Don't all babies cry sometimes?"
Oh my sweet girl. The red flag went up for her too. As I listened to Sheila share this story fondly, I felt sad. That was a sign of her RAD. That was because she couldn't count on adults. That was because she cried and no one came so she learned not to cry.
"It doesn't sound right to you, does it?"
"I know your Mom shared that story because she thinks it's cute you never cried. It made me sad. You are right babies cry so adults take care of them. You know how you had a lot of different adults that were supposed to take care of you as a baby?"
"Yeah, like 10 foster parents."
"Well I think maybe they didn't take care of you like they were supposed to and so crying didn't get their attention. I think it's connected to your big feelings. You didn't cry because you weren't being taken care of and that makes me sad."
"So why did my Mom make it seem like a happy story?"
"Sweetie, she doesn't know it's not a happy story. She doesn't understand. It's part of the things she doesn't understand about how to take care of kids the way she needs to."
"I understand now."
How I wish she didn't have to understand anything. However, I'm grateful that we get to hear birth stories and tidbits like the full head of hair she came out with. And I'm pretty proud of my kid for questioning the thing she didn't understand.