It wasn't intentional. Maybe a happy accident. But I won't be home for Mother's Day. I'll be across the country. And in essence, Mother's Day won't happen and I'm perfectly okay with that.
I'd rather not be in the vortex of emotions. The guilt and the fear that come with a day soley focused on Moms because my kids have many. And since I'm the safe Mom, I get to do the heavy lifting. I end up aggravated and they feel bad and so it's better. They can have a fun day playing outside with Dad and no one has to focus on Moms. I have ZERO guilt about being elsewhere.
I'll be running 13.1 miles to complete the challenge I gave myself a year and half ago. I started running to control something. It was an outlet. I'll have run a 2nd Disney race, and earn a special medal. I'll be dressed as Wendy Darling for this Tinker Bell themed race. Fitting that I'll be running as the stand in Mom for the lost boys, don't you think?
For nearly 4 hours I'll have nothing but time alone with my thoughts. Time to reflect on all that has happened on my journey to motherhood and all that's headed my way. I also use this time to pray. And I will pray for all of the Moms. The adoptive, biological, foster, aunts, grandmothers, friends and hopeful Moms. I'll say a special prayer for those Moms grieving and those Moms who are walking a hard path.
Happy Morher's Day.