Sadness

This was a rough weekend for me emotionally. I found out my friend passed just as I was sitting down to lunch with one of the Fab Four's former therapists. 

It's awkward to cry in the middle of a Cheesecake Factory. 

My friend was an amazing person who shaped the lives of many many people through her musical gifts. She's one of the people who influenced the Mom I became. My heart hurts when I think about her son and her husband. 

I also struggled with some jealousy regarding those around us who are expecting. I try so hard to push those thoughts away but I'm really having a hard time with it this weekend.

Patience is not my virtue today. And all I really wanted to do was curl up and cry. 
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  1. UnknownOctober 21, 2013 at 1:44 AM

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  2. Cherub MammaOctober 21, 2013 at 6:38 AM

    Someone on FB pointed out that we had a full moon this weekend. Wonder if that played into anything. I was an emotional wreck!!

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