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November is Adoption Awareness Month

I knew it before today but the 3 emails I got today told me so. It also said 1700 kids were adopted through foster care in our state last year.

I had a rough day with foster care today. Long story short the caseworker still can't seem to remember to inform us ahead of or nearly after major changes and doesn't seem to think its a big deal because "I observed the were happy. I was pleased with their reaction."

Fan flipping tastic for you. Unfortunately, trauma behaviors came at me and I had no idea why. But as long as you think it went well then I guess no need to let the foster parents know until 5 days later. But a kid fell at family therapy and bruised her knee and that warrants an urgent text message? Seriously? We are so far off the mark in what constitutes important I can't even discuss it anymore.

So Hubby fired off a response basically stating that if the common courtesy of a heads up letting us know something changed cant be extended, neither can we. So you will need to take notes during our monthly meeting. We will no longer be summarizing for ease of reference. It was somewhat out of character for him but I'll take it.

I also told the case workers boss that they only thing that has stopped me from disrupting is my commitment to my kids and the only reason I have not filed a complaint is that I do not want to give more credence to the complaint Bio mom filed as its a totally separate issue.

Thank you and God bless those of you who made it through this process to adopt treasures of your own. I have a sincere respect for you. I pray that you have found joy and that those of you struggling or trying to help you kids heal have an easier time doing so.

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  1. Hi there, I have been reading through some of your posts and want you to know that I have been where you are. I have experienced all of the same frustrations with the system and how broken it is. In fact, I have been reading a lot of foster mom stories and am heartbroken to hear this common theme. I couldn't have imagined a "case" as difficult or messed up as ours was. But there are. A LOT. I know you are feeling hopeless right now but I want you to know there IS hope. I do not have any biological children but I have three kids, all adopted out of foster care. Our older two are siblings who we had for a year and a half before they were returned to their birth mother. They came back to us two years later - that was 3 and a half years ago. We have issues with PTSD, ADHD, DID, ODD and speech and processing delays with my youngest. We are getting there and they are healing and doing great. It is so hard to see the hope on the other side of things when you are in the middle of such pain, frustration and even anger at how crazy the whole thing is. I will be praying for you as you go through the "hard part". Danielle B.

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